I wrote to you almost a year ago.
You must be happy today. You finally get to meet Daadi Ma. You know she’s been wanting to see you since ages. Now you’re all together. And I’m sure it’s amazing wherever you are.
Can you believe they whatsapped me about her too? Just like they did with yours.
Just like I guess they’ll know about me one of these days.
It’s inevitable. No reason being coy about it.
I was thinking about both of you D. Actually I was thinking about the list of people I may never have the heart in me to forgive. Or forget in this case. The list is very small. Only two people on it.
So I was thinking about your mother. And I was a confrontation in my head. When or if I ever get to meet that woman again what I will say.
How she wronged you. Actually we all did. We all played a part in what happened to you.
But I guess this is human nature. To lay all the blame on one single entity. And I hate her. With all my heart I do.
Anyway today isn’t about her.
Let’s talk about daadi Ma. I am glad I got to hug her a lot when I visited her. I’m so glad. Never will I ever regret not hugging her enough. That’s one regret i know I’m never going to get. Thank God.
Abba said she went saying my name. Maybe he did that to make me happy. Because he knows what happened to me when you left.
How is that supposed to make anyone happy? That the person they were calling for in their last seconds on earth wasn’t even around.
Who do I lay blame for that?
D, I won’t take much of your time. I know your have tonnes to catch up to with dadi Ma. Give her all my love.
I hope that both of you are free now.
Happy. And free. And in peace.
Catch you soon.
Inna lillahi Wa inna ilahe ra’jaeoon.